Impressive…but stop thinking!

 Ashley from The Lonely Diet Girl gave me this awesome award! Here’s the description:

These blogs are exceedingly charming. These kind bloggers aim to find and be friends. They are not interested in self-aggrandizement. Our hope is that when the ribbons of these prizes are cut, even more friendships are propagated.

OMG how sweet! Thank you my dearest! I feel honoured *wub*.

 This was yesterday’s dinner: Curried tofu with garden peas. It was delicious and I used the leftover tofu on my sammich today! Very tasty indeed (and high protein!). Recipe courtesy of Veganomicon, which is the most awesome cookbook out there! Yum.

Yesterday I did a random check of where my calories and other nutrients are at, since I’ve been eating without counting cals. Yesterday’s result:

Calories: 1677
Fat: 66 grams
Carbs: 242 grams
Protein: 67 grams
Fiber: 42 grams
Vitamin C: 240% 
Iron: 112%
Calcium: 130%
Folate: 113%

I think I did pretty awesome! Check out all the nutrient goals I met, my protein, fiber, etc.! I say: good job Ruby!

Which brings me to my second point from my title: I need to stop thinking so much! Seriously, this week was one of the worst thinking-cycles I’ve been in for ages! I thought I’d just had a little bout last week, but it continued on this week as well. 

I need to get this off my chest, so bear with me please. I was going to do a video (to somehow make it less boring…), but it turns out I don’t have a microphone on my Mac and my camera battery was low. But I will do one soon!

Numbered mulling-over list

1. PT trainer and cash flow. So yeah, I don’t think I can afford my PT anymore. I just get left with so little money and I feel like since I’m not needing her for anything specific, I will be fine without her. Yet of course, I feel quite bad about this. I’ll tell her tomorrow.

2. Fitness regime. The problem is I want too do too much and without any specific goals in mind. I remembered reading something in The Power of Now by Eckhardt Tolle (never finished it btw). He said: Evaluate the thoughts you have in your mind. Are they your own, or do they belong to “others”? If they do nt belong to you, let them go. He’s not talking about being some whacky thought-snatcher (but then you still need to listen to him, you naughty snatcher you!). He’s talking about expected patterns and thoughts. I realized the thoughts on my fitness regime were coming mainly from outside myself.

So what do I want? I want to run three times a week. I want to do strength training once a week, to retain the muscle I have. I want to take my gym bag with me to work on certain days and just hit the gym for a short cardio sesh after work, to get my mind disconnected from my work and to help me relax. I’d like to add the odd short yoga sesh whenever I feel like it! Exercise needs to stay enjoyable and I want to keep looking forward to my gym sessions.

3. Nutrition goals. I keep switching between wanting to restrict slightly and then wanting to rebel. It is driving me insane! What I really want is to Stop having these conversations in my head! I don’t need to restrict. I don’t need to restrict. I don’t need to restrict. I want to keep a focus on healthy foods and tasty lunch recipes during the week, and give myself a little lee-way on the weekends. I want to feel the pure delight in finding the new fresh produce of the season. Smelling the fresh ingredients as I cook a new recipe. Experience the satisfaction of finishing a nutritious and filling lunch. Feel the subtle current of healthy energy flowing through my body.

4. Eating mangoes naked. This is the title of a book by SARK. If you haven’t “read” (it’s more of an experience really) any of her books, please check them out! They are all about things like letting your creativity flow (even when you’re a perfectionist and procrastinator), celebrating the succulence of being a woman (even in the depths of depression) and finding pleasure in life - which is the subject of this book. I’ve read Eat mangoes naked a couple of times and it always helps lift my spirits and remind me there is more to life than overplanning and overthinking everything. Pleasure comes in all shapes and forms. We just have to look for it.

In the context of this book, I divulged in some pleasure: check out the ride I went on!

Isn’t it huge?! I went together with a coworker and we screamed. It was on our lunch break. Let me just tell you – I didn’t want any lunch after that! Even though I was nauseous for about two hours afterwards (and still feel a little weird now), it was pure pleasure. When is it you have a fair across from your office and you can go on a ride? I challenge you: find something pleasurable to do today! Do it now! Don’t be stingey with the pleasure! Teehee.

I leave you with a pic from our wedding day, as I realized you haven’t seen any. Seeing Leah’s preps for the big day remind me of ours! *Love*